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Not sure what I was aiming to do here. Except FLOW in my FLOWY PANTS (Penneys best, don't you know!)🌸🙈@nerdynaturopath managed to make it look picturesque 🌱🌿🌿🙈. I think I've reached a point where sharing this kind of thing isn't just for fun anymore. For me there is kind of a surge of muted terror every time I do it, and I feel it's a way to really test my boundaries and continue leaning into the discomfort of exposing myself, to continue growing...this platform just a convenient way to do it. My real way is with words, using them in whatever way I can - through teaching, writing, singing & sharing. Words are a way for me to weave understanding from the complex curly knots of thoughts and anxieties that bounce through my head of any given minute. This picture is just a sign of how far I've come away from the confines of an anxious and restrictive mindset which disallowed that flow of words for a long time. Having had pictures taken for things before (in what seems like a previous lifetime) be such an intensely uncomfortable experience, it has been very freeing recently to notice that I feel somewhat ok in being in front of a camera now. Somewhat. There will always be that niggling doubt🙈🙈but compared to how I used to feel posing for group pictures or even just casual shots - there really is no comparison. Maybe (like my Mum says) it's an age thing. But I'm not so sure. Being comfortable in our bodies & minds isn't necessarily something that comes with time - in fact, a lot of the time it works the opposite way. Using words to explain & explore my inner workings & mind has been a key step on this path to continued healing, & I'm hoping to expand on this with some journalling & blog-related things on my website sooon. Til then.....wear the flowy pants. Dance in them. The only person judging yourself is you. 🌿🙏🌠🌠🌠 🙏 🌟 • • • #flow #yoga #yogapants #flowing #nature #dance #yogaeverydamnday #yogaretreat #france #anxiety #journalling #writing #create #mentalhealth #healing #yoga #selfinquiry #french

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Not sure what I was aiming to do here. Except FLOW in my FLOWY PANTS (Penneys best, don't you know!)🌸🙈@nerdynaturopath managed to make it look picturesque 🌱🌿🌿🙈. I think I've reached a point where sharing this kind of thing isn't just for fun anymore. For me there is kind of a surge of muted terror every time I do it, and I feel it's a way to really test my boundaries and continue leaning into the discomfort of exposing myself, to continue growing...this platform just a convenient way to do it. My real way is with words, using them in whatever way I can - through teaching, writing, singing & sharing. Words are a way for me to weave understanding from the complex curly knots of thoughts and anxieties that bounce through my head of any given minute. This picture is just a sign of how far I've come away from the confines of an anxious and restrictive mindset which disallowed that flow of words for a long time. Having had pictures taken for things before (in what seems like a previous lifetime) be such an intensely uncomfortable experience, it has been very freeing recently to notice that I feel somewhat ok in being in front of a camera now. Somewhat. There will always be that niggling doubt🙈🙈but compared to how I used to feel posing for group pictures or even just casual shots - there really is no comparison. Maybe (like my Mum says) it's an age thing. But I'm not so sure. Being comfortable in our bodies & minds isn't necessarily something that comes with time - in fact, a lot of the time it works the opposite way. Using words to explain & explore my inner workings & mind has been a key step on this path to continued healing, & I'm hoping to expand on this with some journalling & blog-related things on my website sooon. Til then.....wear the flowy pants. Dance in them. The only person judging yourself is you. 🌿🙏🌠🌠🌠 🙏 🌟 • • • #flow #yoga #yogapants #flowing #nature #dance #yogaeverydamnday #yogaretreat #france #anxiety #journalling #writing #create #mentalhealth #healing #yoga #selfinquiry #french

Come home to yourself. Take rest. Breathe. An eternity away, Will do this to a body. A constant searching, yearning to be any other; any other shape, in any other shoes, Constricts even the broadest of hearts. 'Walk a mile in my shoes' - or just follow my bared soles, Taking turns wherever yours feel the need. Let's move forwards, soft in this Intrinsic nature, this full-bodied feeling, Dewy with newness, creative force and potential, like a May morning on the brink of the next adventure... ...the journey 'home' continues. 🌕 🌕 Feeling the moon heaviness. Kapha game strong. Naps for days. Intermittent yoga and stargazing. Oh and nasi. 👌🍛 • • #moon #fullmoon #musings #palmtree #amed #bali #writings #poem #poetry #nasi #scorpio #skyline #pinksky #water #earth #ayurveda #kapha

Labels. Timeframes. 5-Year Plans. When you realise the essence of your own divine nature, boundless creative energy & potential...it all becomes a little irrelevant. Getting hung up on making decisions and plans is only an issue when you don't trust yourself or believe in yourself enough to be capable of it and follow through. Realising our own potential and worth is at the core of so many issues - But humans are flawed creatures. There aren’t many ways to choose the ‘right’ path without first making mistakes & choosing the ‘wrong’ ones. 🌠 When you realise that there never really were any ‘wrong’ or ‘right’ paths, actions or choices in the first place, that everything has just been a sequence of decisions, movements, acts & consequential results continuing on & on again until the end of time (or until global warming makes the world spontaneously combust), you start to get the sense & really, truly believe that - OH. Right. We really are infinitely powerful creatures. And that power...well, it terrifies us. We fear our own power - so we play small. We cower from our potential, our own unique gifts & creative, divine nature. We conform. We follow suit. We contort & constrict our souls to fit job descriptions, labels, & societal roles that only exist as a means to elicit a frantic sense of control over a supremely creative (& powerful) population. We need to wake up. If there’s anything my journey so far (& I say that in full knowledge that some people reading this will have lived longer, more experienced & travelled lives than I), has taught me, it is this; We are already whole. YOU are already whole. Stop looking outside yourself for beauty, for richness, for certainty, for connection; the Divinity and everything you need is already within YOU. In case you’re struggling to see it today, know this: You are Divine. 🙏🙏🙏❤🌠🌠 So hum. • (Thank you to the divine @nerdynaturopath for pic😚) • • • #yoga #france #divine #divinenature #whole #selfworth #decisions #mentalhealth #writings #power #creative #energy #sohum #iamthat #nature #

The harder you stare at the night sky, The more stars you’ll see appear. Light in spaces where before only an all-consuming darkness prevailed. This phenomenon is proof that if we persist and look hard enough, spend time on getting still, seeking & observing deeper, asking the why and how - lightness will make itself seen. The lightness which resides in all things. I have darkness in me. For a long time the dark spaces between the stars seemed to all but gobble them up. A negative force both sly & unapologetically brutal ate away first at my mind, & then at my body. My spirit, being so linked as it is to the two, cowered from it’s light, afraid to stand tall, embody potential or step a toe out of line from the norm. The contrast between the depth of this darkness & the reality which surrounded it becomes evident on days like today when, in a place many would call ‘paradise’, I snapped a beautiful sunset picture, turned around & drove home alone with tears streaming down my face. There are some parts of ourselves which we cannot run away from. Parts which exist no matter how beautiful the external surroundings. Embracing them & practicing awareness through yoga & meditation is the only sustainable way for me to manage the days when the presence of light is a mere blip in the fog of depression & anxiety. Many people still live in this fog as their reality, unaware (as I was) that there IS another lense through which we can view the world - one in which both the light and dark realms are embraced equally. Because seeking one without the other is a useless endeavour. Hoping for the shining light to continue without ever casting a shadow is not only unrealistic - it’s just not possible. I have come to welcome the darker days, the shadow side, safe in the knowledge that they coexist symbiotically with brightness - just as one side of the world is sleeping, while on the other side, daytime is in full swing. Yin & Yang. Light & Dark. All of it passes. All of it returns. So hum. I am that. May is #mentalhealthawareness month, & I thought this post might highlight the fact that all of our feelings, however difficult or uncomfortable, are relevant on the path to healing.

🌠 The biggest shift happens when you start being open to see this truth. That although we might be just one amongst billions of other humans, all trying to do life here on this planet without messing up too much, that this very opportunity is also such a blessing. We are being presented with one life; one opportunity to create things, to thrive, and to serve. The more time spent worrying about what could go wrong, the less time is spent actually in the process of creating, thriving and serving - and making time for creativity/recreation is seen as one of THE most important elements of maintaining a healthy, happy brain!🤓💭 🌠 Everything you've done up til now has left a mark somewhere. Both good and bad. By resisting any of this we are denying our very nature, experiences and overall existance. It's only by integrating all of this into our current state of being that we can start to create from a place of true awareness and authenticity. 🌠 Not for views. Not for likes. Not for fame or even money. Just for the sheer joy, connection and fulfillment of creating. Even writing these words has given me that feeling. That's enough for now. 🌠🌠 What will you create today? • • • #workofart #poetry #writings #creativity #magic #stars #yoga

Sit with it. The want to always have MORE. This need to create wonders. The compulsion to go, go, go. Sit back into the motionless origin of it all, Open to the possibility that maybe, Just maybe, This need for movement and constant newness is keeping a silent masterpiece from rising. In between the fear of change and the fear of sameness there lies a waiting, dormant strength. Waiting for you to strum on both strings, To sing and dance and play in the realm of maybe. Trust in this space. Trust in the maybe. Maybe is where all possibilities await... 🙏🙏🌟🌠🌠 • • Very lucky to be spending time amongst some very inspiring, encouraging and deeply connected women this week, which has really given me space to tap into some much needed creative flow.... 🙏🌱 thanks to @embody_my_truth__delphine for capturing this 😚 • • #flow #yogaretreat #creativeflow #poetry #maybe #music #creativity #magic #create #music #mantra #france #domain #carcassone #hatha #tantra #yin #yogaretreat #writings #journal

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